For over a year now, I have been sneaking my girlfriend’s Adderall.
We have been together for two years, and she just recently broke up with me because I finally broke down and told her the truth.
She told me if it happened again, we were done…and I didn’t listen.
I took 4 more…
Like what the fuck is wrong with me?
I’m obviously addicted, as I was able to convince myself that I could get away with taking more knowing full well what the consequences were.
I’ve hurt her…bad.
And she is so depressed by it.
I asked her to stay with me, and that I would get help… and she just needed to keep fighting with me.
But she just simply said she doesn’t have any fight left in her.
I get it. I really do.
But it still doesn’t make the hurt go away.
She is the love of my life, and she is the woman I want to eventually marry.
I have to make things right.
I have to get help.
Not just to save myself, but to save our relationship.
It’s so hard getting through the day without Adderall and without seeing her.
But I have to be strong. I have to get her back.
I’m so disgusted with myself for letting things get this far.