My story is shockingly common: a teenage girl who hates the fat on her body and barely scrapes by in school.
My story is typical, but with a few atypical details.
A few weeks after breaking up with my boyfriend of a little under a year, a faint blue line appeared on a pregnancy test taken in a grocery store bathroom.
I was scared, and we both had no idea what to do; but all that I knew was that this little life inside of me depended on me to care for it, fight for it, nurture it, and love it; and I loved it more than I had ever loved anything.
About a week after finding out that I was pregnant, I started bleeding heavily. I almost had to be rushed to the ER twice in the few days before I sought formal medical attention.
I was informed that fetal demise had occurred around 7 weeks gestation, about a week before the actual miscarriage, and that was why the blue line was so faint.
This caused me deeper pain than anything else that had ever happened in my life, and even though that boy and I got back together, he offered no emotional support. He dealt with his pain by shutting off and shutting everyone else out; including me.
I became extremely depressed. My grades dropped even lower than my C- average.
One day, a couple of weeks after the miscarriage, when I was struggling to stay awake in a class I hated, a girl I was acquainted with handed me a little white pill.
I was informed that it was a generic brand of Adderall, and upon doing a quick internet search, I confirmed that it was indeed a combination of amphetamine salts and dextroamphetamine.
So, I said “screw it” and popped the 45mg.
Within minutes, I felt a change occurring.
I breezed through all of my classwork and missing assignments (I had about 30 of those). A warm, calm feeling flooded through my chest and I felt…happy. For the first time in a very long time.
As time went on, I continued to abuse Adderall.
I noticed the belly pooch that served as a constant reminder of the baby I lost going away, replaced by jutting hipbones and ribs.
I lost friends, permanently damaged my relationships, and I didn’t like who I was becoming; so I quit cold turkey. At that time, I was snorting 90mg a day.
For the whole 5 months I was sober, I constantly craved Adderall. It was unbearable. I was just as depressed sober as I was addicted.
October 5th would’ve been my baby’s due date. Everything was 1000x worse that day, and I couldn’t take it anymore.
A close friend of mine was selling Adderall XRs and IRs, so I cracked and relapsed that morning. I shut my eyes, sat back, and let the pills paint my brain in dopamine.
About a month into me using again, I was railing 60mg a day and eating maybe a granola bar or two a day.
I looked like a walking corpse, and my doctor confirmed this when he told me that my kidneys were failing.
From there, I cut back a bit, but I couldn’t stop using. Adderall was my lover, and I couldn’t let go.
What made me want to try to get clean the 2nd time around was a combination of a few things:
1) One of my close friends confessed his love for me by saying, “I wish you wouldn’t take those pills. How am I supposed to marry you one day if you’re not here?” I didn’t choose to date him, but his words still shook me.
2) Another friend of mine showed me a picture of a woman with an eating disorder, and she told me I looked just like her and she begged me to stop using.
3) My mom came into my room one night, confronted me about snorting Adderall, and begged me to stop before I killed myself.
4) A close friend of mine and I reconnected. I told him about my drug use, and he proceeded to explain the chemical compounds of Adderall vs. Meth; and how if I kept using, I was going to die
All of this happened over the course of a few days.
So with that, I stopped cold turkey again, and started dating the friend from no.4.
But this time, at the 2nd week, I didn’t want to use ever again. I was happy clean; I was happy with him. So why start again?
But alas, on week 3, I was constantly on the brink of relapsing again.
I didn’t know why I wanted it, but I did more than anything. My craving for this drug ruined my relationship, and that’s where things got bad again.
When we broke up, I was devastated to say the least.
This person had been the one I turned to for everything over the past two years. It was as if he was made for me, and I screwed it all up.
A few days after we broke up, I relapsed; and around midnight, I guess I snorted one too many lines because I was so dizzy and my heart was irregularly pounding out of my chest.
When the left side of my upper body started going numb and tingly with random shots of pain, I decided to call him (he knew a lot about medical stuff and knew what to do in this sort of situation). He calmed me down enough to keep me from going into cardiac arrest, but I still felt like a failure.
I had done this all to myself.
I had destroyed our relationship, severed friendships, wrecked my body (I was at 108lbs and only 5ft3 with all of my body fat in my butt and my boobs), and hurt my family so badly with my addiction.
Enough was enough.
I told my mother the next day what had happened.
I cut ties with the “friend” who continued to sell to me when my kidneys were failing and nearly killed me. I had hit my rock bottom, and I was never going back to that evil little pill again.
Withdrawal was the very definition of Hell.
Constant cold sweats and shakes, I couldn’t even keep down water, constantly drifting in and out of sleep, horrible depression, this withdrawal was worse than any other time I had tried to quit. Even cigarettes lost their appeal.
But I toughed through it, and now here I am, 38 days clean.
As I write this, I am a few days away from finally getting into a rehab facility.
They never tell you how hard it is to get help; it’s taken me 30 days to get admitted into rehab and get my financial affairs in order (REHAB IS EXPENSIVE!).
All of the other times, I was too stubborn to admit that I needed help; and now that I have and I am getting it, I have never felt more free.
Yes, I still have some symptoms of withdrawal (they never tell you in the media that you end up with sores everywhere), but I am in a much better place than I was on Adderall.
If you are reading this and you are using Adderall, GET HELP NOW.
It is never too early or too late!
If you are reading this because you suspect that someone you know is abusing prescription amphetamines, do what you can to get them help too! Tell their parent or something; they’ll hate you now, but thank you later.
Adderall has ruined my life, and I don’t want to see anyone ever have to go down the path I went down.
If it takes me telling my story to prevent even one kid from swallowing that little pill their classmate offered them, then I am happy to tell every gory detail.
In this busy day and age, employers, universities and friends place a high value on productivity, efficiency and alertness.
Because of this, it can be tempting to turn to stimulants in order to heighten your natural abilities.
But there is a big difference between drinking a cup of coffee or two to jumpstart your day… and snorting a prescription medication like Adderall, a powerful amphetamine.
According to a 2012 article in The New York Times, Adderall abuse has become a huge problem among high school and college students who are willing to sacrifice their health in order to get a competitive edge in their studies.
What’s even more disturbing is that some parents are willing to support their children and even ask them to take these drugs, if that means that their children can earn better grades and consequently qualify for more prestigious universities across the country.
If you are already snorting Adderall and you are thinking of the negative side effects on your body… or you if are considering doing that, you have landed on the right page.
At the end of this page, you can ask your own questions about snorting Adderall or leave a comment with your own experience with this drug.
Continue reading to understand how snorting Adderall affects your body and how you can minimize the negative side effects on your health.
What Happens When You Snort Adderall
The moment you snort Adderall, a large dose of amphetamine and dextroamphetamine is released into your bloodstream.
Because this drug is not being absorbed in your body through the GI tract, the release of these two powerful stimulants happens extremely fast. Adderall is then absorbed within minutes into your body through the mucus membrane of the sinus cavity, where it enters the bloodstream and goes directly to your brain.
Most people who snort Adderall experience a euphoric state within minutes of ingestion. Additionally, they feel an improved focus, a state of excitement and a radical boost in energy level.
Because of the intense, euphoric high, many who snort Adderall are prone to overdosing on the drug. The consequences of an Adderall OD can be devastating.
Even if you don’t OD, snorting Adderall can be extremely bad for your health. You may experience one or more of the following side effects, for example:
– Chest pain
– Difficulty in breathing
– Muscle pain
– Suicidal instincts
– Rapid heart rate
Not only will you have to deal with these side effects, but you may also run the risk of contracting various infectious diseases if you choose to share a snorting tube or instrument.
To top it off, snorting Adderall damages your nasal cavities and hinders your body’s natural ability to create mucus, which opens the door to infections of the sinus.
How Effective is Snorting Adderall?
When snorting Adderall, you will experience the same side effects, but they are more powerful and have a shorter life span.
The high you feel and the capacity to learn better both last much less time. So, you feel a need to snort again.
According to doctors and many users, snorting Adderall generates a reaction in your body very similar to snorting cocaine.
This should serve as a warning sign, as cocaine is a very addictive drug.
Snorting Adderall also increases the likelihood of contracting infectious diseases and also increases the chances of paranoia and dizziness.
Overdose may cause permanent nasal damage or even death.
Over time, the positive effects of Adderall and the short-term high you feel do not come close to the long-term damage it does to your body.
Using Adderall in any way can only be effective under strict supervision from your doctor, and only to treat ADHD or another qualified problem. Otherwise, this drug is highly dangerous.
Professional doctors will never prescribe snorting Adderall.
Why People Snort Addies
The real problem in our society is that snorting Adderall has become a behavior that people engage in just to experience that thrill of getting high.
Snorting Adderall is a recreational high. Just like cocaine or crack.
But by the time you graduate to snorting Adderall, it is a serious warning sign that you are addicted and you may face major consequences for your body if you don’t quit.
Why Is Snorting More Dangerous?
Adderall is normally prescribed in capsule or tablet form.
When this drug is used for recreational purposes, it can be easily snorted by crushing the capsule and spilling its contents, then crushing it down into a powder.
Not only can snorting Adderall have negative side effects that can impact your life, such as shortness of breath, loss of appetite, increased blood pressure, but it could put you in a hospital or even worse may cause death.
Snorting Adderall has been found to cause stroke in adult users and death in children and teenagers with heart problems.
Because Adderall is a stimulant, getting faster results also means the negative consequences occur faster. Additionally, because of the increased risk of dependency, withdrawal is harder.
Is the quick high and the euphoric effect really worth the risk of so many negative side effects, psychological disorders, infectious diseases or even death?
Long-Term Health Risks Associated with Snorting Adderall
Snorting amphetamines incurs very specific risks, some of which only show themselves over time.
In the case of Adderall, recreational users who snort this drug tend to take higher doses than those who take capsules of Adderall. This also means snorters are more likely to develop a dependency.
Inhaling this drug through your nostrils can dramatically damage the sinus membrane and might even affect the internal structure of your sinuses. This damage is for life, so you should think twice before abusing Adderall.
Adderall XR, the newer capsule form of Adderall, is intended to last all day and its contents are much more potent than older forms of Adderall. Of course, the downside is that snorting XR can cause more severe effects, such as toxic shock, high fever and even sudden death.
Another dangerous side effect of snorting Adderall and Adderall XR for a long period of time is psychosis. Psychosis is a state where you hear or see things that don’t exist in reality. This is a very dangerous condition, because it not only affects you, but it affects everyone around you. Psychosis can make you become extremely agitated, violently defensive and nervous. These frightening misconceptions can be disturbing and unpleasant for those around you.
Finally, there is the Adderall crash, which only gets worse when snorting. The intensity of the high you experience right after snorting Adderall is followed by an equally intense episode of low self-esteem, depression and exhaustion.
How to Determine If You Have an Problem
After snorting Adderall, if you notice one of the following side effects, it is imperative to get to a hospital immediately.
– Excessive sweating
– Rapid heart rate
– Cardiac arrest
– Heart aches
– Unusual change in behavior
Signs of Addiction
Whether you are taking the drug under strict medical supervision or you use Adderall for recreational purposes, you might not realize that you have a serious problem until it’s too late.
Here are some obvious signs that you are headed in the wrong direction or may already be addicted to Adderall :
– You lie to doctors, forge prescriptions and go to multiple doctors in order to get this drug.
– You have no control once you start snorting Adderall.
– You borrow or steal Adderall from your best friends or family members.
– You think all day long of buying the drug or experiencing the high.
– You lie to your friends and parents about how much medication you are actually using.
– You have nasal and respiratory problems due to Adderall snorting
Getting Help for Adderall Abuse
It can take a while to realize that snorting Adderall is affecting you.
However, once you realize it, you should seek help re. how to fight your Adderall addiction. If you know someone else addicted to Adderall or snorting it, please feel free to send them here to learn more.
If you have any questions regarding snorting Adderall, please contact us or leave a comment below.