“Things are really beginning to take a toll, and I need all the support I can get” – Hope4Eva

Hi everybody.

I’m a working mom with a 5 year old daughter.

I started taking Adderall as a teen just for the rush, but I did not have an addiction back then.

I stayed off Adderall for many years after my teen years.

You see, after I had my daughter at 25, I got very sick and was diagnosed with a chronic pain condition called IC – or bladder pain syndrome.

I got depressed, and my house was becoming hard to keep clean.

So when my friend got a script for their ADHD and told me they had some to spare, I thought Adderall was my answer!

I know, damn, was I wrong.

I did get my house in order, and for a year everything was going great.

I even picked up my passion for writing and launched a mixtape!

I used 30 mg a wk, and I’ve always been very careful not to use 2 days in a row.

Well, things are really beginning to take a toll, and I need all the support I can get.

My anxiety is very bad… my chest is tight, I can not breathe deeply.

I’m finding it hard to stay productive on days I don’t have Adderall and end up marathon cleaning weekly, which is horrible since I’m using my day off to clean instead of spending time with my family. A friend has told me to consider weed vape juice that gets you high, which I may use instead to ease myself off of the medication more.

Worse, my brain is fried. I am a smart girl – I love to read, I love history ,writing and researching subjects.

I feel like Adderall is stealing my creativity and killing my brain cells.

I have a slower responses to questions and my reaction is slow.

I twitch now and then – a whole body twitch!

I even see things now and the, like a person who is not there …sad due to Adderall addiction and withdrawal

I really need help.

I would like to continue my life with my music and stay productive at home.

I want to quit, and I have friends who are not good, as they offer me adds.

I‘m trying to stick to people who encourage me to stop taking this drug.

At the same time, I have to cut sugar and cut back on caffeine I know!

I’m diabetic and my doc says I will not be able to have another child unless my sugar levels go down!

I’m tired… sooooo damn tired …