I’m a working mom with a 5 year old daughter.
I stayed off Adderall for many years after my teen years.
You see, after I had my daughter at 25, I got very sick and was diagnosed with a chronic pain condition called IC – or bladder pain syndrome.
I got depressed, and my house was becoming hard to keep clean.
So when my friend got a script for their ADHD and told me they had some to spare, I thought Adderall was my answer!
I know, damn, was I wrong.
I did get my house in order, and for a year everything was going great.
I even picked up my passion for writing and launched a mixtape!
I used 30 mg a wk, and I’ve always been very careful not to use 2 days in a row.
Well, things are really beginning to take a toll, and I need all the support I can get.
My anxiety is very bad… my chest is tight, I can not breathe deeply.
I’m finding it hard to stay productive on days I don’t have Adderall and end up marathon cleaning weekly, which is horrible since I’m using my day off to clean instead of spending time with my family. A friend has told me to consider weed vape juice that gets you high, which I may use instead to ease myself off of the medication more.
Worse, my brain is fried. I am a smart girl – I love to read, I love history ,writing and researching subjects.
I feel like Adderall is stealing my creativity and killing my brain cells.
I have a slower responses to questions and my reaction is slow.
I twitch now and then – a whole body twitch!
I even see things now and the, like a person who is not there …
I would like to continue my life with my music and stay productive at home.
I want to quit, and I have friends who are not good, as they offer me adds.
I‘m trying to stick to people who encourage me to stop taking this drug.
At the same time, I have to cut sugar and cut back on caffeine I know!
I’m diabetic and my doc says I will not be able to have another child unless my sugar levels go down!
I’m tired… sooooo damn tired …