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My Adderall Addiction Symptoms
Dunno about you, but back when I was abusing Adderall, I often had the feeling that something was off about my life. That I wasn’t really being my true self.
Now that I look back on it, the signs were clear that not only did my body want me to quit Adderall, my inner self wanted me to, as well.
Do you share any of my Adderall addiction symptoms listed below? If so, you may want to think about quitting Adderall for good.
1. You miss your old self
Adderall is amazing in helping you get things done. It’s easy to become proud of all the stuff you accomplish when you’re using, too. This productivity thing can define who you are, over time.
But if all you do is do, then you end up missing out on other, more important things in life… like following your passions, building stronger and more intimate relationships (not just sex) and simply drinking-in the world around you.
As for me, I often wondered about the things I used to really enjoy before Adderall became my crutch. Stuff like:
Gazing at the stars on a beach dune, and daydreaming.
Reading a long book – just for fun.
Napping on a Sunday afternoon.
Lying in bed with my honey for hours, talking about nothing (without having to have sex).
Fact is, most non-medicated people have a hard time fighting these sorts of natural passions and desires.
But on Adderall, I seemed to have an infinite ability to ignore them – and get shit done.
I now know (always knew?) that the most beautiful things in life have little to do with doing stuff. And these are the things you lose when you’re addicted to Adderall.
2. You wish you could turn it off, at will
Adderall helps you with so many things: work, school, cleaning, taking notes, organizing. The main benefit of Adderall is that it puts you into superpower work mode instantly.
The downside? it doesn’t let you quit hyper-work mode, even when you need to.
Like when your girlfriend wants to talk about her day.
Or when your daughter wants to hear another (boring) story before bed.
Or when your dog wants to cuddle on the sofa.
These moments aren’t just important to others, they define who you are, too. I wished I could have dialed down the meds more during precious, unscheduled moments like these.
3. You wonder what life might have been like, without it.
I often thought about what my life might look like if I had never taken Adderall, never leaned on that medical crutch for so many years.
Maybe I’d be a better, stronger person? physically, for sure!
Maybe my job would be totally different?
Maybe my love life would be better and more intimate?
Maybe I wouldn’t need a pill to start every new task or to finish every job?
Maybe I wouldn’t walk around with all this guilt?
Maybe I wouldn’t have to ponder this question, ever again…