I started taking Concerta in 1996. I was 6 years old at the time.
My mom left the state and left me in my grandmother’s care.
The school said I wasn’t focusing & I wasn’t talking, and this would help.
If they actually cared and worked with me, they would have discovered the real problem was PTSD. Caused by countless rape and sexual abuse by a family member.
But it was easier to just drug me up.
I had no idea about withdrawal ’til I was 18, dropped off my mom’s insurance and my RX was $ 200. I couldn’t afford it.
I went 2 years, suffering every day, it was a struggle. Waking up, standing, just being alive.
But nothing compared to the first few weeks: it felt like shin splints in every bone.
Everything hurt like the flu. All I could do was lie in bed and cry. Cold-sweat night terrors.
In one, I begged my girlfriend to take her father’s rifle and shoot me. I was to weak to do it myself.
Over the course of 2 years, I got better, but I was still suffering with fatigue and feeling mentally slow.
I lost jobs because of it.
Over the years, I got insurance and have been able to afford my medication.
It turned out after the Concerta withdrawal, it just wasn’t strong enough.
So they put me on Adderall.
I have tried to come off it many times, but every time I’m in so much pain I just can’t take it.
I am trying to get in to see a specialist, so I can one day not be dependent on this drug… I NEVER needed in the first place.
This drug should never be taken by anyone. It’s not worth it.
Please, don’t put your children on it.